blasé .

slumdog millionaire came out on dvd yesterday. i’m gonna watch the SHIT outta that movie tonight.

my stupid film projects definitely come in waves and there are days when i have absolutely nothing to do but then there are days when i have work coming outta my ass. and it’s quite painful.

i think i’ve finally narrowed down what i’m gonna see at the film festival:

i wanna see “Rudo y Cursi“, this mexican film starring Gael García Bernal and Diego Luna where they play brothers and after “Y Mamá También” i’ll watch anything they’re in together.

matty wants to see a horror and there’s thing one called “Hanger” about a deformed kid who was brutally aborted and left to die but somehow survived and 18 years later seeks revenge. i don’t like horrors but i’ll see it just cause i’m open to anything.

omg! there’s another mexican film i want to check out called “Voy a explotar” about these two badass rebel teens and apparently the director borrows some french new wave techniques so i’m really excited to see this. matt’s gonna kill me though cause everything i wanna see is in spanish and subtitled.

i’m prolly gonna create a new logo this weekend. i’m no graphic designer, but i need the photoshop practice.

so i’m in a really awkward situation with this guy. i don’t like him romantically at all. he’s my big brother’s age and he’s totally a cool guy to hang with but he’s too old for me. i believe he’s obsessed with me and it’s freaking me out. i’ve not answered his phone calls to maybe give him a hint to leave me alone. but that hasn’t worked. when he asked me if i saw myself being with him i explained to him that i don’t even know what my plans for tomorrow are – let alone the rest of my life. he’s becoming extremely annoying but i don’t have the heart to tell him to leave me alone. i think i’m gonna pull the whole “i’m too passionate about my work to be involved with anyone right now”. which in all honesty is true. see me at the end of the semester buddy – but this weekend…i’m making mooooooviessss haha.

ok. so while i’ve been simultaneously writing this post matthew’s been texting me. he thinks i’m being a douche bag to this guy. i’m really not. he kept calling me yesterday but i was so swamped with school and work that i wasn’t able to get back to him. so he called me a-fucking-gain (made that up) while i was in class today. i texted him and told him i’d call him later cause “i have to talk to him”. yes. i used that dreaded phrase that’s usually accompanied by bad news. hopefully he has a hint as to what the conversation will be about and make my job easier. i kinda feel like total shit now and i don’t know how i’m gonna word this but i’m definitely gonna tell him the truth. cause i’ve been in situations where guys think they need to spare my feelings or something and decide to just ignore the situation and in my opinion that’s 10x more asshole-ish than being up front with someone and telling them you’re not into them/found someone else. so i’m going to take the initiative and not treat him like i’ve been treated.

it’s a shame too cause this guy had potential. he’s really into cool stuff. but unfortunately for him i’m not looking to be tied down at the moment. atleast not to his psycho ass.

oh. and i got whack ass jury duty tomorrow. wtfXupwitdat?