it’s been forevs!

but i’ve been super tied up with school and stuff. i’m finally close to done just gotta bang out this script and i’m good.

my mom’s bday is today. she’s the greatest woman ever! she’s 42 and i spoke to her last night for about an hour and she freaked me out cause she said in 8 years she’ll be 50 and i’ll be 29. that pretty much means i have 8 years or less to get my shit together. i’m severely suffering from “The Graduate” syndrome which you’ll only understand if you’ve seen that movie a million times like me cause that’s what happens when you’re a film student.

so yea, i turn 21 tomorrow. whoo! nothing will change. i already drink every weekend.

i threw a party saturday it was good times.

this is still my fave recent song. i’m gonna blast it on my way to work!

end bitches!

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watch this!

holy hell, kid can wail. this almost made me cry – i swear. now, my lil broski can can hit some notes but never have i ever seen such a youngin’ belt it out like this boy did. and he’s the most adorable thing i’ve ever seen with those dimples lookin’ all cute and what not. i give him 2 thumps up.

natalie portman’s shaved head

the band that opened for lily allen. like them so much i purchased their album – legitimately. i like this video.

enough of this ish – back to workkkkkk

i like that boom boom pow!

i had a delightfully enjoyable weekend without consuming much alcohol. +10 pts for me!

we did get drunk on thursday for allison’s bday and that was the funniest ever.

amanda is a funny kid.

she calls me tienisha.

i saw lily allen in concert and we were front and center. like literally, i saw every beautiful inch of her body. i thought i was gay that night. the images of sexually explicit things that kept flashing in my mind as i gazed into her eyes are unmentionable on here. but i’m available for cybersex on aim..lol JK. but no seriously, i think i went home a little moist. she puts on such an amazing show. i want her body. she’s so precious and she’s got that accent. omg.

she looked right into my camera here! omg so sexy!

one of my fave songs on the new album is called “who’d of known”. it’s a cute little disgustingly romantic song about the super beginning of a relationship and the uncertainty of what’s gonna happen. like when people are super into each other and swallowing each other’s saliva in public and you saw “ew”. she has an adorable song about it. so, after hearing the album for the first time it was an instant connection with me. however…what made it better was that right before she performed this song she addressed me outof EVERYONE in the crowd. well, she actually thought me and matty poops were together so she explained the song’s meaning and looked and pointed at us and said “like you two” lol. so he put his arm around me and we played it off for like 2 minutes. all the time i was eyeing her up and down haha. so yea, that’s my little brush with her. she acknowledged my existence – i can now die happy!

the opening act “natalie portman’s shaved head” was really good too. i was eye fucking the SHIT outta the lead singer with his tight pants and his sexy haircut.

the bestest.

i’ve been putting off film shit forever. haha i’m so scared of the end of the semester.

but ryan helped me shoot this little experimental jawn in my creepy ass basement. omg we made it so emo. i will definitely have him around for future productions.

i had the most awesome night/day. to describe it would take away from its awesomeness so i won’t. needless to say: sunny skies = natural highs.

i’m so excited for the summertimessss.

i hate when people turn a situation into something it’s not even close to just to make themselves sound cool/badass. haha. YOU ARE A LOSER, seriously.

my best friend from high school is coming to visit me this weekend. i’m gonna show her good times

i love hanging out with coworkers outside of work. it’s the best.

hell week(s)

begin today. mad films to shoot.

but i found this awesome ass commercial.

[beatbox]

this is not a video of me beatboxin’ even though i can. it’s actually this sound design project i had to do for my editing class and yea. i don’t remember whether or not i was high while working on this. i actually doubt i was high. i’m just really really weird. but she said we could do whatever we want and yea that’s what i did. don’t laugh haha i’m sensitive.

easy, tiger.

haha my titles have nothing to do with anything. it’s ridiculous.

i got into a lil’ fender bender this morning. it wasn’t my fault but i let the guy go. just a scratch and minor dent, no biggie.

hoping for some good karma, i sure as hell need it.

pray for me cause in these final weeks of the semester i have 2 final film production projects and final drafts of scripts. hardest 3 classes of my life. i might die.

dude stopped calling me finally. i explained to him that i couldn’t give him what we was looking for. i felt a little bad, but he continued to call me 3 times a day for 4 days. my parents don’t even call me once a day, my god! so yea, unfortunately i will no longer be learning how to tune and race bikes. oh wells.

i ate a shitton of swedish fish in a short amount of time yesterday and got sugar rush in the worst kinda way. hot flashes like shit – i thought i was dying.

i can’t fucking tell if this guy likes me or not and lord knows i won’t say anything because i’m awkward beyond all belief.

example: i got embarrassed yesterday by something really stupid and the nervousness carried on for about 20 minutes. i tripped on totes, ran into a shelf, and when i went to wash my hands i got water all over my pants.

as much as i promote maturity i kinda miss those high  school days where you could tell a friend of a friend’s cousin that you liked someone and by lunch the person would know.

apartment shopping is fun/annoying…if that makes sense.

lily allen in 10 days! whoo. i love that woman and would do obscenely grotesque things to her if given the chance.

i want someone (preferably a guy, but i’m sexually open to anything) to learn the “jai ho” coreography with me so we can shoot it on the streets of philly. matty already said no.

i wanna karaoke! so bad, i don’t know why. but like, on a stage with a massive audience of strangers watching me.

i think i’m gonna give up on bowling. i suck. there’s no coming back from how much i suck. sucking is not always a bad thing. i actually quite enjoy – haha jk jk jk JK! the end.

be the change.

i’m goin’ to my first phillies game today. i will be very drunk in public, always a good time.

i’m currently faced with the difficult decision as to whether or not i will remain in philly post graduation. i really wanna be in ny or la but i think if i go there right after graduation i’ll get sucked into some crazy lifestyle that i can’t break out of. not to mention, it’ll be so expensive to live there that’ll i won’t be able to focus on my career at all.

i’ve also been thinking about europe, like spain or something. just for a few years, unless i fall in love with it.

i hate growing up it’s too confusing. haha i really don’t wanna leave college it’s been the best time of my life.

slightly boring stuff about myself is next so feel free to not read…

bloody brilliant!

past two nights without sleep screwed up my schedule.

it’s gorgeous out and i have to work. sucks.

can wait to start hangin’ outside more.

brad’s gonna give me a skate lesson next weeeeeek!

i think i suffer from social anxiety. whenever i have to confront a situation my heart sinks into my stomach. like constantly all day. it’s been doing it for the past 4 days and it’s driving me INSANEEE.

i like his style and i’m kinda into him but i don’t wanna tell him and freak him out.

oh, but i will – alcohol unfortunately brings out the truth in me.

i’ve seen slumdog millionaire 4 times.

danny boyle has a wierd obsession with doo doo.

go see slumdog millionaire, please? you can even borrow it.

oh snapsss lily allen concert’s in like 2 weeks! i gotta narrow down who i’m gonna give this ticket too…cause i’m too nice like that. too nice.

gotta work on my spring lovin’ this week. gotta get a springtime boo.

END.

blasé .

slumdog millionaire came out on dvd yesterday. i’m gonna watch the SHIT outta that movie tonight.

my stupid film projects definitely come in waves and there are days when i have absolutely nothing to do but then there are days when i have work coming outta my ass. and it’s quite painful.

i think i’ve finally narrowed down what i’m gonna see at the film festival:

i wanna see “Rudo y Cursi“, this mexican film starring Gael García Bernal and Diego Luna where they play brothers and after “Y Mamá También” i’ll watch anything they’re in together.

matty wants to see a horror and there’s thing one called “Hanger” about a deformed kid who was brutally aborted and left to die but somehow survived and 18 years later seeks revenge. i don’t like horrors but i’ll see it just cause i’m open to anything.

omg! there’s another mexican film i want to check out called “Voy a explotar” about these two badass rebel teens and apparently the director borrows some french new wave techniques so i’m really excited to see this. matt’s gonna kill me though cause everything i wanna see is in spanish and subtitled.

i’m prolly gonna create a new logo this weekend. i’m no graphic designer, but i need the photoshop practice.

so i’m in a really awkward situation with this guy. i don’t like him romantically at all. he’s my big brother’s age and he’s totally a cool guy to hang with but he’s too old for me. i believe he’s obsessed with me and it’s freaking me out. i’ve not answered his phone calls to maybe give him a hint to leave me alone. but that hasn’t worked. when he asked me if i saw myself being with him i explained to him that i don’t even know what my plans for tomorrow are – let alone the rest of my life. he’s becoming extremely annoying but i don’t have the heart to tell him to leave me alone. i think i’m gonna pull the whole “i’m too passionate about my work to be involved with anyone right now”. which in all honesty is true. see me at the end of the semester buddy – but this weekend…i’m making mooooooviessss haha.

ok. so while i’ve been simultaneously writing this post matthew’s been texting me. he thinks i’m being a douche bag to this guy. i’m really not. he kept calling me yesterday but i was so swamped with school and work that i wasn’t able to get back to him. so he called me a-fucking-gain (made that up) while i was in class today. i texted him and told him i’d call him later cause “i have to talk to him”. yes. i used that dreaded phrase that’s usually accompanied by bad news. hopefully he has a hint as to what the conversation will be about and make my job easier. i kinda feel like total shit now and i don’t know how i’m gonna word this but i’m definitely gonna tell him the truth. cause i’ve been in situations where guys think they need to spare my feelings or something and decide to just ignore the situation and in my opinion that’s 10x more asshole-ish than being up front with someone and telling them you’re not into them/found someone else. so i’m going to take the initiative and not treat him like i’ve been treated.

it’s a shame too cause this guy had potential. he’s really into cool stuff. but unfortunately for him i’m not looking to be tied down at the moment. atleast not to his psycho ass.

oh. and i got whack ass jury duty tomorrow. wtfXupwitdat?